Showing posts with label discipline. Show all posts
Showing posts with label discipline. Show all posts

Friday, September 21, 2012

Lessons from Running


Dear TEAMS, 

It’s been an intense day in our household.  M is feeling overwhelmed and frustrated about beginning his freshman year at Millersville, and is struggling with not wanting to do the work when he knows he has to do the work.  S just thumped Tom Sawyer down on the sofa, frustrated that he has to read the book in only several days and answer the study guide questions I got online.  T came up this morning and was already overwhelmed at the prospect of cleaning the 3-story residence with E this morning and doing her schoolwork in the afternoon, all while watching the precocious neighbor girl.  And I imagine that E and A will each come home from their work with their own stories of getting through their work day.

And what does that have to do with running?  Lots.

Not all of us are runners in our family, but the majority of us are.  E, M, and S have competed/are competing at the secondary level, and your father and I have competed locally.  (Well, let’s be honest: Daddy and E competed, I showed up and finished.)  I have realized recently that there are a lot of life lessons that can be learned from running, and I brought them up to S today when he just was stuck in his emotional misery.

Running is about endurance.  There is a point in every run, even for seasoned runners, that the body systems become overwhelmed with the strain.  The lungs feel like they’re stuck in Pringles cans, the legs feel heavy, and the brain starts thinking things like I don’t want to do this; it is uncomfortable, This is hard work that I didn’t know I would have to do, and This sucks.  Especially to beginning runners, they really think they cannot run any more that day.  But the truth is, if we just push through that discomfort, usually you hit a pace and rhythm that you can run much longer and make the run serve you instead of the other way around.  As with life, those who push through the hard part end up finishing well.

Running is 60% mental.  Five days a week, I start a run knowing I will have to go up the South Mount Joy Street hill towards the end.  This is a steep incline in only a 2-block distance.  The first block, the incline is gradual, but the Pringles lung syndrome comes back and since I have already clocked over 1.5 miles, my legs are tired.  Let me tell you what I used to think for the few minutes it took me to run up the hill:  I don’t HAVE to do this—it’s not like I’m a professional or anything; I’m 45—I should be taking it easier on myself; I just don’t feel like this today—I’ll do it tomorrow instead; I shouldn’t have to work so hard to be healthy; Who do I think I am, thinking that I can run up a hill that the college students barely mount?  And guess what?  I would finish the hill, somedays giving up halfway, and always feeling like crap.

I was running it one day and Father spoke to me very clearly about the mp3 running on endless loop in my head.  He reminded me that He Himself said, “You are what you think about most of the time.”  I realized that I wasn’t just saying negative things, I was actually telling myself lies.  He asked me to instead run up the hill only thinking about truths in His word and facts about the state of my life.  So, I changed the audio loop to:  I want to do this to achieve other goals in my life; I am young, I am strong, I am healthy; They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint; Pain is temporary—quitting is forever; When you’re going through hell—keep going; I can do all things because of Christ’s sacrifice 2000 years ago for me—including this hill.   

You are smart enough to know what happened with this.  The hill is no longer a mental barrier for me.  Plus, it became a frame of reference for me with other challenging things in my life, as in “Hey, if I can do the Mt. Joy hill, I can _________________ (deal with the child’s temper tantrum, plan this party, etc.)”  Someone once coined the phrase, “Life is 10% what you make it and 90% how you take it.”  Attitude really is everything, and can transform the hardest hurdle to the smallest speed bump in an instant.

Running is a discipline, and you just gotta do it.  I don’t think about brushing my teeth and washing my face, morning and night.  I just do it on automatic pilot.  But there was a certain time in my life that I had to discipline myself to remember to do it and do it well.  I fought against boredom and felt like it was a waste of my time.  But after so many thousands of times, I no longer even think about it and just do it out of habit.  And I’ve got great teeth and skin to prove it.  That’s how I have been with running.  I lace up my shoes and just spend the 40 minutes and do it.  If it’s a weekday, it’s happening—no questions asked, no second guessing.  And truly, that’s what most of life is…just understanding that what you face in a day needs to be handled healthily, whether you want to or not.

Love, 


Tuesday, August 7, 2012

The Problem With…


Dear TEAMS,

The problem with someone’s God being their intellect is that brain cells die.

The problem with someone’s God being their emotions is that they change from hour to hour.  Or, at least they should.

The problem with someone’s God being the Universe is that it has no love.

The problem with someone’s God being entertainment is that the best things in life come from labor and effort.

The problem with someone’s God being food is that it turns into crap and pee.

The problem with someone’s God being their morals is that they shift from culture to culture.

The problem with someone’s God being their friends is that people change.  Or, at least they should.

The problem with someone’s God being their “self” is that it is WAY too small.

The problem with someone’s God being their spouse or kids is that they die and leave.

Our God is not made of earthly stuff that passes away.  He exists apart from feelings.  He is not dependent on our emotions and feelings.  He existed before us, during us, and will exist after us.  And He is crazily, fully, completely and unashamedly consumed with love for us all the time…even when we don’t like Him or think of Him or are busy with our other gods.  He created us and will love us no matter what we do back.  

Someday, you will take the first look at your new son or daughter and be filled with a love that is so intense that you are certain in that moment you are existing in the dimension where God sits.  It will be brief and fleeting, but in that moment you will know that you will never love anyone as much as you do that child, and that you would gladly do anything to protect, grow, and preserve that human.  I know, because it is what I experienced the first nanosecond of taking you in, breathing in your skin, rubbing your soft hair on my cheek, and looking at your unknowing eyes.

My Loves, that is how your God sees you all the time.  If you are not intimate with Him today, I pray you will humbly come before Him and renew that relationship.  If you are intimate with Him today, I pray in this moment of reading this, you will be blessed with an even greater intensity of grateful love towards your Creator, Father, Lord, King, Friend.

Love, 
 

Friday, July 13, 2012

Discipline—How to Discipline a Child, Paddies Needed


Dear TEAMS,

I have been speaking with you about discipline as training, and I wanted to talk with you about spanking, which we did with you.

We did not call it spanking in our house because of the negative connotation society has associated with that word.  It has, in some circles, become synonymous with abuse.  And it bears restating that spanking that is emotion-led and from a heart of frustration is abuse, in my book.  We instead used the term “paddies,” mostly because if we were overheard warning you that “Paddies are next…” in public it might raise eyebrows but wouldn’t get the same emotional reaction as “spankings.”

First though, a few guidelines…a checklist for you to evaluate your heart and make sure you are keeping paddies effective:

  • Paddies are not done to “show who’s the boss” or exercise power over the child.  Kids already know adults are in charge.  Paddies are creating an unpleasant experience for the child to associate with the behavior that is not good for them to have.
  • Paddies are never done with a hand.  We had the “Paddy Spoon.”  Some days, I had to walk around with it in my back pocket.  S managed to hide the Paddy Spoon on me fairly often…one day I found it in the van!  I wanted you to associate my hand with tender love, not tough love.  Also, having "the Spoon" made it easier to have a secret message for an offender.  As in, if one of you was doing something wrong and we were in a group, I could pull out the spoon and point to it to send you a clear message.
  • Paddies are only ever given as a backup after another form of training has not stopped the undesirable behavior.  So, if redirection didn’t work, and then sitting quietly in the chair in the middle of the room didn’t work, then paddies were used.  Please see the last post for a script I used.
  • Paddies are only ever administrated in the sequence listed below, because paddies don’t change a heart.
  • If you are emotionally frustrated or angry, you should not use paddies because they will be harder than you need (and really want to administer).
  • If there are multiple paddies being given in a day, the fault lies with you, not the child.  The child is trying to get attention.  Stop what you’re doing and spend time with them, or with all the children.
  • Our actual Paddy Spoon, Third Edition
  • There is a point at which paddies became less effective and we had greater leverage by withdrawing desired things.  I think by the age of 6 all of you were at a point that I found paddies less effective for the “big stuff.”  There might have been one or two events later, but they must have been fairly serious infractions.
How We Used Paddies (All Steps Necessary):

  1. [Child does undesirable behavior.  Pull child away from place where they are to more private place. Do the process I spoke of in the last post.  If child continues disobedience…]
  2. [Name of child], if you continue to do what you are doing, you will get paddies.  Do you want to get paddies?  (Because you are not idiots, the answer was always, No.)
  3. Okay, well I am going to count to 3.  If you are still [doing whatever] by the time I get to 3, you will have to go get the spoon.  (I couldn’t always have you guys fetch the spoon, but it added to the time you had to think.)
  4. 1….2… (by this time I was really praying you’d make a good choice to end it)….3.  If the behavior didn’t stop…
  5. Take the child to a private area.
  6. Say, “Do you know why you are getting paddies?”  (Wait for answer.  I don’t remember if you ever didn’t know, but if you didn’t then I wouldn’t have administered paddies.  But with all of the previous steps warning you, I was pretty sure we were in the “willful disobedience” waters.)
  7. What Rule of the House does that break?  (They answer.)
  8. Okay, so now I am giving you 2 paddies because [restated what they did wrong so they associate the action with the paddies].  I usually administered the paddies at the top of the back of the leg, or at the side of the thigh.  I did not swing my arm back high, but usually used my wrist.  The only tears I was looking for were tears of repentance, not of pain.
  9. After the two paddies were administered, I would then ask you why you got paddies.  (I know it seems like overkill, but I wanted you to really make the connection with the behavior and something undesirable happening.)
  10. Then I asked hugged you and told you that I loved you and that I was sorry you made that choice.  I also prayed with you, asking the Father to make the discipline be something that would help you in your life.  I also told you that if you did it again, the next time you would get 4 paddies.  (And they would increase by 2 every time.)  Rarely would you go back out and repeat the infraction and we had to repeat the exercise and give 4.  There were two separate times 2 of you got more.  It was traumatic for me, but I kept a straight face and you got the message when we hit double digits.
Many of my extended family didn’t approve of us using “corporal punishment,” as they called it.  That was hard for me.  But, as with all things your father and I did, we came back to the litmus test of “Are we raising children who will be successful adults because they understand the greater concepts of the ‘real’ world?”  In the real world, there are natural consequences for bad choices.  It might be as subtle as withdrawing conversation from someone at a party who makes the bad choice of talking about themself all the time, or it might be as blatant as prison for committing a crime.  But that is the real world.  The point is to encourage the child to make good choices even when he/she doesn’t feel like it, even if he/she is tired, even if he/she doesn’t like the way things are.  And to be giving so much love that paddies are a blip on a screen surrounded by acceptance, kindness, and solid relationship.

Love,


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Discipline—How To Discipline a Young Child, No Paddies Required


Dear TEAMS,

In the previous post, I spoke about the overarching premise of discipline and how it’s not about controlling a child’s behavior.  Now I would like to give you the practical outline of how we disciplined in our home when there was an issue…although seeing as you were the recipients of it, you probably have it memorized by now!

We always had three rules posted in our house:

  • Treat other people the way you want to be treated.
  • Do what you’re told to do, when you’re told to do it, and do it without whining or complaining.
  • When Mommy or Daddy tell you to do something, you respond with, “Yes, Mommy/Yes, Daddy, I will.”
We never needed more than those rules, because all infractions broke one or more of those rules.  Those three little rules were great at addressing the major heart attitudes that caused problems for our household, plus they let you know what boundaries there were.  The first, the Golden Rule, addressed your treatment of others, birthed in you the ability to sympathize and empathize with another person, and also opened you to understanding that God’s way is the best way all the time (seeing as the Saviour of the world commanded this and it hasn’t failed its exercisers yet).  

The second addressed the “how” of what you do…do it in a timely fashion and without causing misery to others.  Ideally, that would allow you to do it with a good attitude, but attitude is a choice.  This at least allowed the other members of our household to be spared the auditory drama that at times would accompany compliance.  (Yes, I am speaking like Temperance “Bones” Brennan to make you laugh!)

The third rule simply allowed you to acknowledge the authority of us to command you to do something.  Our household was a benevolent dictatorship with servant leaders as the adults.  You responding with a “Yes, Mommy” told me that you had heard me, but more importantly, reminded you that I was allowed to be requesting what I was of you…whether you liked it or not, whether you felt like doing it or not, whether it made sense to you or not, etc. etc.

I bring up these rules, because it plays an important part in the Discipline Cycle.  When you were young, if one of you broke the rules, whether by taking a toy from your sibling or outright defying us and not doing something requested of you:

  1. I pulled you to the side and asked you the Rules of the House. 
  2. I asked you what you did.
  3. I asked if that broke any of the Rules of the House and which one?  Usually you were right on.
  4. I flipped the situation and asked you, “If you [had the toy, had told me to do something and I didn’t, etc.] and [someone took it from you, I spoke to you that way] how would you feel?”
  5. I waited while you thought.
  6. I waited some more as you got uncomfortable with understanding what you did that was wrong.
  7. I asked you to tell me the answer.
  8. When you inevitably told me that you would feel bad about it, I asked you (since you were in the middle of feeling that empathy) if you wouldn’t want the person to say they were sorry.  You always said, Yes.
  9. I escorted you to the offended party and told them you had something to say to them, or if it was me, I had you apologize.
  10. Then, I prayed a very simple prayer with you and sincerely thanked God for you and that He was teaching you something new.
When apologizing, I always made you say what you were sorry for:  “I’m sorry that I [took your toy, spoke to you rudely, etc.]”

See another post for times when “backup” was needed…

Love, 

Friday, July 6, 2012

Discipline—The Art of


Dear TEAMS,

Both your father and I grew up in a house that used spanking to control our behavior.  (Notice that I did not say spanking as discipline.)  As far as controlling our behavior, it worked well for our parents, because both your father and I didn’t want to get spankings any more than we had to.

This is just another family curse that your daddy and I stopped in your ancestral line.  By all accounts, the woman that raised my father (your Grandpa K)’s mother was literally insane.  My Grandma S endured some pretty serious stuff, and therefore I’m certain my father also endured some serious stuff.   Therefore, he had no training on how to discipline a child, but knew it probably shouldn’t be as bad as what he endured.  I wish to honor my father in that fact…that I truly believe he wanted to go easier on me than what he had.

Your father has a very funny story of his mother chasing him around with a flyswatter, and how he knew it was serious when the Tupperware cake keeper handle was used.  Again, not discipline.

I can only speak from my experience, but spankings in my house were, “If I piss my parents off enough, I will have a sore butt.  And if I do something REALLY wrong, my pants will be pulled down and I will have an even sorer butt.”  This is not discipline.  This is abuse, because at the heart of the spanking was that I did something wrong and my parents were annoyed and were trying to get the thing that was annoying them to stop.  As the recipient of this behavior, I learned to walk in a low level fear and learn to gauge how much I could get away with based on my parent’s moods.  It became a sort of weird game.

Notice that I mention in the previous scenario that I did something wrong.  This is important, because this letter to you is about discipline.  The choice you will have with your own children, my grandchildren, is whether or not you will simply control their behavior or use the opportunity of their failure to obey to help them learn a life skill.  It is a decision you will have to make over and over and over again, because your children will test you over and over again for a variety of reasons and because you will not be the same person every day of your life.  But the truth of discipline never changes:  activity that is meted out simply to get another party to behave a certain way for the convenience of another is selfish at best and abuse at its worst.  True discipline involves a training process by which activity is applied to another along with understanding and knowledge about the activity for the purposes of changing a heart from a harmful state.

There have been failures with both your father and I in our discipline, where we simply punished your behavior.  I regret that, and hope that you will forgive/have forgiven us.  I made it a point to ask your forgiveness afterwards each time.  However, the majority of times I disciplined you, especially as young children, I used the method I talk about in the next posts.  It seemed to work very well and allow you the opportunity to feel respected and loved, even though “paddies” were being used. 
 
And you are all such marvelous people, I believe it was indeed training.

Love,