Dear TEAMS,
In the Fall of 2011, I was a keynote speaker at our church’s
Ladies’ Retreat. I spoke about the
God-Shaped hole, and how that related to addiction, and brought in my personal
experience with food addiction. This and
the following posts are this same talk with minimal modifications.
A attended the retreat and said it’s what she’s heard her
whole life. May you find this
information as familiar. And may you
decide every day to allow Father to fill you when you are empty, instead of
with all the earthly stuff you rely on.
Because you all have addictions as well.
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Then God really showed
me a concept that brought me to my knees.
Before, I had thought an “addiction” was something people who were
addicted to substances had, and it usually involved alcohol, drugs, tobacco, or
porn. God, in His gentle, kind way,
showed me that addiction was actually when someone returns to the same sin over
and over to fill the God-shaped hole they have.
And I had to admit, by that definition, I am an addict. That’s a pretty humbling thing, to realize
there are things that I turn to instead of God on a consistent basis.
So let’s review here:
- Every person on this earth was created with a place that only God can fill. It is a large place, and its emptiness leads us to have feelings of discomfort, unsettledness, desperation, ancyness, discontentment, and unpeacefulness.
- Sin is the act of putting something in our God-shaped hole that’s not God. When it first goes in, it satisfies for a short period. Anything can be a sin, depending on what our hearts are at that moment.
- Addiction is simply a sin that we repeatedly turn to and put into our God shaped hole. Usually it is something that we have found that provides the longest temporary comfort, but it wears off and we eventually realize that hole is still there.
Now, given those
definitions, I want to share with you my addictions. I actually turn to food (usually sweets, but
it can be anything), escaping through daydreaming, and entertainment as my
addictions.
I’d like to just take
my food addiction and examine it a little bit based on this new definition of
addiction. Remember, eating food is not
sinful. Eating as a pleasurable
experience is talked a lot about in the Bible!
But remember that we have a new definition of addiction, and it is based
on the state of my heart when I eat the food that is the problem.
How many of you have
ever watched an episode of The Biggest Loser?
For those of you who haven’t, it’s a show where they take people who are
what is medically considered morbidly obese, which means the adipose tissue in
their body (what we call body fat) is so excess that it is guaranteed to have
an adverse and/or fatal effect on overall health. They have them living at a spa where they
spend hours per day working out and learning how to eat better. Over the course of 8 months, there are
weigh-ins and every week of the show the people who didn’t lose the largest
percentage of body weight are eliminated, until it comes down to a couple
people and one of them is voted the Biggest Loser.
Well, it’s quite the
show, and there are all these success stories.
And you’d think that after someone had taken the time, effort, and cost
to lose all that weight, that after the final weigh-in, they’d be done with
being overweight forever. So for the
purposes of this talk, I actually got the stats of 46 people from the first 10
seasons of Biggest Loser contestants and found out some interesting facts. Of the 46 people I got the stats for:
- 5 have lost more weight, if even just a pound
- 10 have gained 1-10 pounds back
- 17 have gained 11-25 pounds back
- 10 have gained 26-45 pounds back
- 3 have gained 47, 75, and 92 pounds back, one of whom has gained back all the weight lost
If you do the math, 30
of the 46 people listed here had gained back 11-92 pounds from the time they
went on the show, as of December 2010.
And these stats reflect only the people who were willing to talk to the
Today show to give their stats. It
doesn’t count one other person from season 3 who regained 200 of the 300 pounds
lost for that show. So it’s safe to
assume that there may actually be others not reflected here.
Well, obviously, there
is something more at work here than just “people eating too much.” What’s at work here is where these people’s
hearts are, and what they are putting into their God shaped hole.
But here’s the
kicker. Please note that I’m not
overweight. In fact, on some medical
charts, I am within the desired range of weight for my height, build, age, and
muscle tone. But I am telling you that
on a base level, there is nothing different between me and anyone on this
chart, because we share the same sickness:
turning to food when we should be turning to God to take care of the
ache in our souls. God does not judge me
by my appearance, he judges me by what’s going on “in here” at every moment. As I have been sharing this evening, the Holy
Spirit may have already brought to mind things that are sin and addiction for
you. Remember how I love you and
consider you my sisters. I am bringing
you a message of hope today, and of freedom from discontentment, restlessness
and unpeaceful living.
What are some
practical things we can do when we realize we are caught in this web?
- Realize that the only person judging you about this is you. God neither condemns nor judges you right now that you do this.
- Understand that God might deliver you immediately from this addiction, but more likely He will have you do the hard work necessary to undo the addiction, and it will take time.
When the urge to sin
strikes:
- Identify the feeling you are having. Are you lonely? Sad? Angry? Frustrated? Disappointed? Verbally speak out, “I am _____________________ right now, God! I feel this way because __________________________________________.”
- Search the Scriptures to discover what He has already said to you to comfort you. No cheating--this needs to be work you do with a concordance and Bible memorization!
- Pray. Use your prayer language if you wish. Just tell Him everything!
- Listen to what He responds. Wait for it.
- If you find yourself daily turning to this sin, just as with Alcoholics Anonymous and other addiction groups, confess your sins to others for accountability. It can be a mentor, a friend, or other Christian.
- If your sin is affecting the quality of your life or the lives of your inner circle of friends and family, consider counseling or other programs.
- If your sin is illegal, seek professional help.
- If the sin is something you can live without, consider a fast WITH COUNSELING to teach you how to have that thing in your life and have it not have power over you.
Here’s the good news
about me walking in this concept: I am
happier and healthier (physically, spiritually, and emotionally) than I’ve ever
been. I am able to cope with difficult
circumstances better than I ever have. I
have lots more friends, and I have found
a greater joy in my blessings and greater capacity to forgive and offer others
grace.
And as my sisters, I
would like to tell you something. This
is not the talk that I would generally prepare for a Ladies’ Retreat. However, it is the talk that I feel our
Father would like you to hear. Not
because He wants to condemn you—no way!
Because you have accepted what Jesus did for you and want to live your
life for God, God sees that. So He knows
you are willing to go places others who don’t love Him yet are not! He wants to take you into greener pastures,
places of deeper health emotionally, physically, and spiritually, and places of
greater contentment that others who are of the world simply cannot go. Understanding and embracing the concepts I’ve
talked about will take you deeper than you ever dreamed was possible in your
daily life. It will open you up to
deeper understanding of Scriptural concepts that will continue to bring you
even greater life—abundant life. As your
sister, I want to encourage you to let God show you what you are putting into
your God-shaped hole day-to-day, hour-by-hour, and moment-by-moment. Doing this will allow you to live in greater
intimacy with God every day.
Isaiah 55
1WAIT
and listen, everyone who is thirsty! Come to the waters; and he who has no
money, come, buy and eat! Yes, come, buy [priceless, spiritual] wine and milk
without money and without price [simply for the self-surrender that accepts the
blessing].
2Why
do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your earnings for what
does not satisfy? Hearken diligently to Me, and eat what is good, and let your
soul delight itself in fatness [the profuseness of spiritual joy].
3Incline
your ear [submit and consent to the divine will] and come to Me; hear, and your
soul will revive; and I will make an everlasting covenant or league with you,
even the sure mercy (kindness, goodwill, and compassion) promised to David. (Amplified)
To this end, I have prepared a worksheet.